I’ve started this post a dozen times. I’m having a hard time writing a post that doesn’t sound hideously whiny.
I am a self-sabotager. I mess myself up when I start seeing success, so I have a reason, rather than failing while trying. I have problems remembering that if I’m trying my best, it’s not a failure.
My other problem is: I am terrified. There is a huge list of things I could write that terrify me. I’m a badass most of the time, but when it comes to making big personal change, I’d rather stay in bed and suck my proverbial thumb.
I’m allowing my fear to sabotage and paralyze me from becoming a better person. I’m allowing it to completely bind me to the old Mia and being tied down makes any kind of growth impossible. I have to let go of the fear-weights holding me down.
I’m tired of starting over. So I need to stop stopping.
(I’m on day 13 of a 72 day challenge. So far, I’m doing decent. But this week I have to kick it into high gear!)