My name is Mia, and I am an addict.
I am addicted to fast food and Coke and I don’t know how to kick it.
I eat super healthy. I am exercising every day. And then, I have a Jack in the Box craving. Curly fries. Anything and everything deep fried and breaded and rolling in grease. *shudder*
So I indulge. And then just once more. Next thing I know, I have eaten fast food every day for two weeks and I have gained five pounds.
I normally would just allow myself to slide slowly back into that life. To the grease-soaked existence I’ve known since childhood. To that half-alive feeling you get when your body is fueled on nothing but garbage.
But I know better now. I’ve felt what my body can do when it’s clean. I know how to listen to my body. And when my body is bogged down by saturated fats and whatever else is in those fries and the burgers (shudder again), I can’t hear what it’s trying to tell me. I drown it in icky foods and it can’t call for help anymore.
And I don’t know how I’m going to get over this – or if it’s something I even CAN get over. I know this food makes me sick. And I still cannot stop eating it.
So I have to make a conscious effort. Fast food is bad for me. I can’t eat it. It will make me sick. I just have to keep repeating that. Until it’s not an effort anymore.